I Am Free

If they only loved you for being docile, inoffensive, peaceful and useful, they do not love you.

They see you in your totality already. There is no façade to maintain. You're already a failure! You're already a failure!

You fail in order to test if everyone loves you regardless of your promising potential!

And they do :)

You don't have to fail anymore to make sure you are loved, and you don't have to succeed to make sure you are loved.

No one has ever kicked anyone out and you're not an exception. And there is no risk you will do horrific taboo things and get ostracized. You're just a regular person.

I don't have to test my relationships constantly, nor be vigilant about them. I can just trust in them and I'll know if there is a problem.

Freeing up bandwidth in my gut and mind.

I don't have to test Fawn's love for me.

I don't have to test my love for me.

I don't have to walk on eggshells with my boss.

I am free.